Имел только что с товарищем разговор. Понял кое-чего Но это лучше цитировать.
Английский, обсцентная лексика, немножко орущего Тенгро
Harbinger,
>> 21:50:45: Ah, yes!
>> 21:50:52: How can I forget!
>> 21:51:01: The fear of death. That's the point.
>> 21:51:49: That was my idea, but as usual I have forgotten it. It is the most important motivation. Unfortunately, I can't use it's advantages.
>> 21:52:36: I used to have insomnia about death and all that shit, but something gave me peace.
>> 21:53:53: The feeling of unescapability, inevitability of total destruction - this gave me comfort. Just take your place and you pop corn
>> 21:54:03: ...and watch as the whole world burns
>> 21:54:44: Do I seem schizophreniac to you? I sure I do, and I like it.
>> 21:54:51: It's like to be on another band,
>> 21:54:54: *.
>> 21:55:15: *I am, god.
<< [Сегодня] Тенгро,
<< 22:03:19: HELL FUCK YOU ALL FUCKING DECADANTS WITH YOUR GODFUCKED "JUST WATCH THE BURNING OF THE WORLD"! Your conviction of unescapability and ineviability of death, your thoughts like "Just relax and try to have pleasure", it looks silly! It looks like surrender to the fate! It's FUCKING WEAKNESS! Untill my last breath I'm going to fight that idiotic, stupid, shizophreniac idea of "Ah-we-all-are-doomed-let's-have-fun-of-it!".
Because everything good and solid in this world was created by people, who thougth that there is something worth to live, something that makes sense.
Yes, now you know my real thoughts about it.
>> [Сегодня] Harbinger,
>> 22:05:46: Someone's ass just blowed off, I see. :3 Than fight, my dear friend, but do not complain if you will ever suddenly feel yourself left alone, face to face with the grim smile of Devil, because death is always personal. Actually, it's senseless to discuss. I belong to Schopenhauer's school, I dare to say so.
Теперь я понимаю пару очень-очень важных вещей о себе.
Во-первых, я никоим образом не пессимист.
Во-вторых, концепция посмертия является рабочим средством от пессимизма. Очень немногие могут что-то делать, считая это бессмысленным и обреченным.
В-третьих, моя личная концепция посмертия порождена неприятием философии пессимизма в её сути.